ready to strike

GCC starts tomorrow. Strangely I don't feel nervous about it any more. I am prepared. I am ready. It's time to go all out and earn what I have always wanted to get since the start of infantry pro term. I don't care about the rumours about how tough our GCC is going to be; I'm just going to go in there and give it all I got. 1 month from now I will stand on that parade ground, proudly donning that khaki beret too. GCC is not about getting takaned all the time, it's about learning to become a guardsman. And that's exactly what I will focus on, learning to be proficient in the skills of a guardsman. 

Couldn't have spent the weekend any better than this, wouldn't have spent it any other way :) these will definitely be fond memories that will keep me going during the 1 month of hell. The happy days that I know will come after the ordeal would also be a great motivation for me :) 

Booking in tmr morning, thankful that we have the last night to ourselves. But I need to go back earlier to pack some other items for my field pack because there has been a few changes. 

This is it then. The next time I blog here will probably be good news of my graduation I hope :)

Looking back, I realized it was always there just never spoken

looking at the past facebook chats I had so long ago. it's scary knowing that conversations like these will never be the same again. if only I could turn back time and help to open my own eyes to the obvious I was too blind to see.

Bedrock of Bedok

First week proper in guards has been going well so far. Physical training is getting tougher and tougher as the days go by and I can also find myself getting more motivated to keep fit. I wish I weren't so scrawny. But I guess it's just in my DNA and there's no way I can bulk up that much, only become leaner and fitter. Though first impression always counts, I'm determined not to let that impression of me last long.

I'm kinda scared yet excited for GCC. I'm scared cause I may not be physically fit enough for all the veto factors. But I know I will be able to take the mental torture of minimal sleep, turn outs, takan sessions etc. I just have to think about what motivates me and I'm sure I would carry on till the end to earn the beret and tab. To make those that I fight for proud of me on that day. Even if I can't run I will walk, even if I can't walk I will crawl. But I'll never stop heading towards my goal. I just hope my body will be able to take it and not end up with an injury. 

The last three months of this year is gonna be interesting. I've been reflecting a lot lately and now I'm finally clear of what I want to do with my life. May all things turn out well eventually :)

It's October

This week has been very slack because of some course we had to attend at tekong everyday, with nights out everyday too before booking in back to bedok camp later every night. In fact, it was too slack for me that I wished that I could be doing PT instead. I gotta be careful what I wish for because the next 3 weeks is gonna be full of intense PT lol... At least it would be a good prep for the upcoming GCC on 28 oct. 

Oh yeah, don't expect to hear much from me from 28 oct onwards. Probably going to be suffering for 1 month to earn the coveted khaki beret and guards tab. Just have to tell myself that I'll live to see another day. That the only easy day was yesterday. No matter how tough it will get, I'm never giving up. 

The year is coming to an end. And that means I'm almost to the halfway mark of my army life. This year has felt so long because so much has changed. I don't think that the person I was in January would have ever believed he would have ended up as a guardsman.. And so many other things he would not have imagined. Life is sort of twisted in its chain of events but somehow it just all makes sense eventually.

Going to miss my platoon mates a lot..