Well not much has happened, the training has been the same old same old, monotonous and tiring. Exactly 4 more months to ORD. No doubt I'm feeling really defeated these days because of many things, from my own personal problems to shit that happens in camp. These last few months aren't going to be easy. I try not to get into the ORD mode because that's not my style. I believe in doing my best for the sake of my men because they deserve the best training. But it's not easy trying to maintain this self-driven motivation with the higher HQ giving you so much nonsense. I'll be completely honest; the day every single one of my men lose their trust and respect in me will be the day I fuck care everything. A day that I think would never and shouldn't happen. Even though some of my men are down now cause of injuries etc, as long as there's still one man left standing I'll still fight on no matter how pathetic it may be...
I don't really know what else to say. Tomorrow's going to be an important day. Hope nothing screws up...
Sighhhhh. Getting one of those wtf am I doing with my life feelings again. Many times I want to do something about my life but then I forget that I'm in army-.- itching to climb, hopefully this weekend I'll get a chance. Goodnight world :(